Operationaly Ready Soldier

30th May 2008 -0910 hrs

STATUS- Completed FULL-TIME National Service.

Current Status: Unemployed NSman.

Although my 2 years wasnt as tough as i wanted it to be,i'm proud to keep a good track record and thank god for bringing me thus far.

Good luck to all people i've met throughout my service,gd and bad ones. :p

P.S: ORD LO!!!!!!!!!@!@!#!#!@!@!#!@!~~!##!#!##@#@#

729th day.

Ok people.This is my 729th day of NS life.Hear me once again, 729th day and im down with another 12 hrs or so to collect that little pink card with a face of a 15 yr old me.lol

Days at BMT,FDS and over at 6AD will be cherished. Memories are still so fresh that i cant fathom the fact that ive ORD-ed,or rather going to.The feeling is rather euphoric though, but ah its like i feel aimless cos of the fact my replies from the Unis arnt going to be in anytime soon and ive not found a job yet.So my current status will be -UNEMPLOYED Poly Graduate.LOL okay im fucking whining now...

Will have to bring myself on track,cannot stray anymore.More like everything seems and needs money.Without it,i feel insecure.Everyone around you respect for wat u have and not wat u are!.Imagine when u touch everything and anything,money must talk first..hahaha thats the perspective of an umeployed..sorry people.

I cant and will not take allowance from parents(u will feel fucking paiseh) till i go aussie ,but being egotiscal me,ill def feel it right down through..So ive got 6 farking months to make at least 10k or round of to that amnt,spent a lil(fuking hope its little with all the drinking and late night outings),and bring the rest as backup.

Yeap.Thats all for tonight folks.I gota hit the bed early,get up early(LAST DAY canot afford to be late if not they'll push the collection date)take it,come back HIT the FUCKING GYM and start my training once again.FROm sq 1.

Peace out. Life is not going to be sweet anymore.

Un Autre Monde

The void has to be filled soon.


I need to begin a new book.A book to keep track of all my life as it goes by from june 2008.
I need to see my progress for the next 10 years. 2008-2018.

I would be 32 by then. What will i be? Who would have i become to.Will i be a respectable ,hardworking executive in some MNC or just a shabbly living technician working for a meagre income to support a family.

At 32,if im still struggling to make ends meet, i know i have wasted my 10 years.
As of now,i have not lived up to my parents expectations.Its worrying them and the pressure is on me.



Before i leave this world, i need to fulfill certain criterias.
That is, get my degree and a well-paying job in the aviation sector.
Do well enough to make my parents proud.
Purchase a house for my parents to live in and make sure they enjoy their retirement days.
Send them for a long vacation around the world.
Make sure my siblings do well as me.
Do something for the needy.
See my friends do well and get married off,living happily every after.
For i'm happy to see others being happy.
Live for them,die for them.

I will do it.

Moments Stolen..

seek beauty hidden..
venture where unbidden..
find solace nowhere..
dream but dont dare..
hope and despair..
grieve and worry yet care..
into nothingness stare..
nothing but misery share..
discover the world unfair..
for noone a thought spare..
smile is but a mask to wear..
love - build castles in the air..
break as your heart it lays bare..

many years have passed

since i saw her last

sometimes she is but a memory faded

something to cling onto when i feel jaded

i dont always think of her much

only during melancholic moments as such

sometimes when i lie alone trying to sleepe

merges from that corner where my blissful memories i keep

a thing of beauty she is to me,

a visionthat gives a glimmer of hope in my world of indecision

shamelessly i confess i would give anything

if i could give life to this wistful feeling

even giving a name to this thing is a trifle hard

i dont know if it is mere one sided love on my part

it transcends whatever love i have found

and easy love in my life does abound

so what is this mesmerizing longing

this one certainty when all else is failing

is it an answer - a joyful illusion

yet another in my lonely life of delusion

why then do i seek and attempt to explain

when my sincerest efforts are but in vain

this vision of hers is personal and intimate

gives me company when i feel all desolate

keeps in place the little vestige of hope

in goodness and virtue and all things noble

as i drift in the maelstrom of use and abuse

she will remain my faith, she'll remain my muse!

Blogging without a Clue.

Alas.I've made my decision. Final DEstination for my education: AUSTRALIA!!! yay baby.

I need a change.ONE blardy drastic one. Away from family,friends and all Loved ones.I want to see who misses me and i want to know the depth of a PROBLEMATIC LIFE will turn out to be.

Australia will boost my confidence to many levels up,altho id be faar faar away from my comfort zone.If its going to do good to me, why not give it a shot? Rite guys!~..

I've got a couple of days before i head back to camp..and a couple of days later i'll be PinkEd!

Back to normal life actually.Holiday till im broke den hunt for some well-paying,chio-bu full job,hold it there for half a year or so.And shooO off baby!..haha

I actually do know wat i'm doing,just that i'm unsure if ill be able to make it to where im suppose to be. :p

The fear of my own destiny has kicked in.

GoooO

Song of the month.

Reminiscening..

Well,having lots of thoughts about my past,from the first kiss i recieved to many many other nonchalant activities i did as from being a child.I was mischeveious,thinking back that i used to be a very adament but happening child that i had to undergo a weekly canning session from my parents,more or less from my dad.(Try not to laugh)

After all these years,i still cant fanthom the fact of the drastic change that has happened to me(the more egotistical raj as u guys call it...blaah blaah).I wasnt like this AT ALL when i was young.It was a fun-filled and happening childhood as i still do remember bits and pieces of it clearly tho.Esp the peak period ,that was in primary 3-5,if i can recall well, where i had the most female contact listings of all time,(now u all can laugh).But its all true.I was very much an active guy.

Now,what have i become?(This time,i'll laugh it off myself....)

Gona get PinKeD!

Back to BLOGosphere.I've found the need to blog NOW..yea now. what if one day i just POOF! and the next moment none of my loved ones realise the non-existence from that day..wouldnt it be painful?Usually sufferings end at death but it seems it will carry on for me.(im just blabbering).something just hit me real hard to start this blogging thing once again.At least for the people who want to know whats happening in my life..

My lifestyle will be back to norm @ the end of this month.

I've waited 2 damn years for this...

its called Civilian-hood.